LoverOfLostSouls

As far as I can remember I have always been a dreamer. I grew up with dreams that were bigger than me and I always remember being encouraged that I would accomplish my biggest dreams. As I got older and life got harder my dreams seemed farther away but my heart ached because I wanted to start chasing but it seemed impossible. The trials I have experienced in life have given me a new lens to look through. There's nothing else that helps you focus on what truly matters in life and how important is to chase after your dreams like losing a loved one too soon. Losing my dad was losing part of my hope in achieving my dreams, it was him who had encouraged me to chase them and it was him who believed I could really achieve the radical dreams I constantly told him about. It got harder to dream and more discouraging because when your dreams call for a miracle it takes some serious encouragement to make you believe and I lost that when I lost my dad. I was such a free spirit who enjoyed life or that's what I had thought for 17 years until I met Jesus after having Trip at 18. After meeting Jesus, I realized I was no free spirit who enjoyed life but I was a dead girl walking who knew how to cover up misery all too well. When I started to know Jesus is when I experienced the most freedom and began to feel what being a free spirit felt like. Gosh, I had been missing out for 17 years. Finding myself in Jesus not only freed me but expanded my limited thoughts into limitless dreams. I thought my dreams were big before having a relationship with God but after you spend time with the limitless and infinite God of the universe, you realize your dreams are a speck compared to the plans God has for you. It took a long time to believe God wanted to use me, had big dreams for me because I had just become a single mom who couldn't pick up and do whatever she wanted. I picked up the "Circle Maker" that has changed my life and how I dream forever. That is why I am where I am today, in this moment, typing this message about needing money to do what God has called me to do. The circle maker taught me to dream dreams that were far beyond anything I could achieve and made me look to Almighty God and ask Him for help. When I began to ask God for bold prayers, He honored them and acted on them. I have circled dreams in prayers that I thought were impossible and unreachable for a single mom like me but God squashed that thought and is taking me far beyond I ever imagined I would be. Why am I going to train to become a missionary? Because God honored my bold prayer and showed me He is bigger than my dreams, He is bigger than my circumstances and He is bigger than I give Him credit for. He isn't limited. He is the God He says He is. He is that big. He is that faithful. He is that good. To sit here and reflect on being a little girl and hearing my dad encourage me to dream big to now sitting in this chair having my Almighty Abba whisper, "Dream your biggest dreams my precious daughter because I can't wait to walk you into your destiny that is far bigger than you ever dreamed it would be. I am opening the doors, you must only walk through them. I am doing far more than you asked for because I do all things in abundance. You are limited in your thoughts, you are limited in what you see but Me daughter, I am the King of all things. So please don't ever doubt how big or capable I am because I am showing you right now that nothing can stop Me. Here you go beloved, follow your dreams because you have nothing to worry about because you have Me." God is giving me the deepest desires of my heart and not only that, He is showing me that no circumstance is too big... I never thought Trip and I could travel the world and spread the good news because it just seemed impossible but once I started circling my big dream in prayer, God showed me He can make it happen. And look here, it's happening in this very moment. Whoever you are, draw circles around your biggest dreams and greatest fears because I am telling you... God will answer. God is all about being radical and full of surprises, so ask Him you wont be sorry :] Thanks for reading and for helping me go after my God given dreams.
With so much love and appreciation,
Alex Irwin